MY HEART'S VOICE: 2018

Saturday, July 21, 2018

What I feel for you

All men of the world came together
And poured their love in one ocean
Yet when it was all summed up
It couldn't match a quarter of what I feel for you.

Oh Lord you are sovereign
And your doings beyond me
Heal my contrite heart
Lift my shedding spirit
May your Truth Light the Way
May I steer not in worldly pleasures
And lose your grace,your abundant salvation.

Psalm 28

Shall a shiver from a blade of grass
Stop the fierce wind from blowing
Will an ember of a dying fire
Burn the flooding rain

Psalm 27

In the dwindling of hope
In the utter despair of this vain life
Whom shall we look to
Whom shall we cry for
Will it be the Face of Truth
Shall we seek the way of Light.

ODE

When hands stain with dirt
Can water truly wash them clean
Or where shall soap foam form?
Well I woke up to a man half dead
Held at the mercy of a wilting semi
Wounds of self-inflicted demise fresh
Spears and knives deep 'neath the flesh
You took a war and said "I'm ready"
Now that you made shall you lie in that bed
In the righteous and the wrong you had it
Amid the flowing pool of confusion
Bearing no secrets within
My heart is ripped in delusion
Then till now shall I suffer
Will peace ever know my name evermore
Yea, I'd give up life to have you again
Tear heavens to get your soul back
Tonight I will miss you and forever knows that
Tonight I call for forgiveness will you cry with me
This once,cry with me
Not my slip leave me alone
Worthless I am without you here
There's nothing left to embrace
Am here left for the dead.

Yours darling

Yours darling is a beauty that calls heaven to a still
The stars cry with envious twinkles
The darkness sinks in space
The glorious golden streets sing for you
The silver clouds fall for you
Yours sweetheart is divine
Yours darling is an inspirational beauty
At the hearing of your voice
I wrote a poem and it was all love
At the look of your eyes
I drew a life and it was all pretty
At the thought of a touch of your skin
My fingers grew itchy,dripping with ecstasy
Longing to bond in eternal kisses,them lips
A taste of art woven in sullen flesh
Yours sweetheart is magnificent
Yours darling is drawer of deep secrets
Hearts pour like pressured streams
Like erupting volcanos,all the hidden desires
Emotion find no masquerade at the clash
When I tasted your love sweety
The feelings and truth can rent me no space
Yours sweetheart is revealing
Yet I sit here miles away
Holding but a photo of you
One which you wear gorgeous eyes upon
An effortless smile curled on your sole dimple
The left cheek dimple
Yes,your left cheek dimple

Lessons

We were in the cold
And when my socks were pulled off
I started learning about my sweater.

Psalm 26

Was it not all I needed
The touch of a warm sword
Wiping a cheek of defeated crystals
Licking and fixing the broken pieces
As I sat there in the wait
Sad that the sun had left me wet
You flew in with your broken wing
Bleeding words soaked in healing
Till then I never knew such a love
For way too long it stayed unheard
That a man in his worse of pockets
A man in his worse of vision
A man looking like garbage
Will glitter in the eyes of such a beauty
And now,
How shall I take you off my mind
Out of my tongue to sing you no more
You've become the curious finger
Aching to write you my best poem
Like an artist longs for a guitar
And a bee busies for nectar
I look forward to your captivity
Taking charge of my thoughts
How awesome I'll string notes
As we in truth starve for such longevity
So I ask why did you not come early
Not in regret but much to salvage
But Now that you're here
I've got nothing left to fear
My soul sings Hossana,Hossana
Blessed is your faithful love
Blessed is he who holds firm unto your truth.

Falling for you

Your face is as sweet as a lullaby
Wonder not those sexy eyes make me sleepy
Your smile is like heaven shimmering
Invites me to touch your lips with mine
Shall I dance to the song you put
In my heart when I stare at you
Shall I tell you the truth that stays hidden
I am slowly falling for you.

Let Them Die

Neglect them
Let them die
Will they be the first?
To lose breathe infront of your eyes
Ain't you used to such?
Neglect them
Let them die
Let them feast pain
Their cries are mere noise
"Was I there when you enjoyed
With your mate,the mate"
Is all you can say
What a shame to the profession
Neglect them
For poverty is a crime
Why not they work hard
And afford private maternities
Let them die
Let them pay the price
Its costly being poor.
Neglect them
Let them die
Wish them a chaotic rest
There's no peace in such death
One that can be prevented
But what do you care
Than your fat corrupt bellies.

Pouring of true love

When;
How are you feeling
Becomes I have feelings for you
How do you do
Transforms to yes I do
How is your family
Turns to I want us to be a family
Moments;
Friendship blossoms to love
The beauty of speaking the hidden
The pouring out of true LOVE

In Love With a Pregnant Woman

what's this that beats in my chest
That which falls for the weird ones
What showers its romance
Cause it yearns for the impossible
I'm in love with a pregnant woman
I don't if its the bulge in her stomach
Or her crave for chocolate and attention
(Yea! I am a good listener)
Maybe its her flash mood swings and bucketful envy
But I'm in love with a paged lady
The kid is not mine
But I not do mind
To whisper next to her angelic ears
How crazy she drives me
Of how I've fallen,for a pregnant her.

I,ABORTED

Till when shall I cry
Till when shall my pain hide
Till when shall I tear myself
And this bitterness crush me
Layers of guilt bury me deep
The fear of taking responsibility
I am haunted by her noises
The laughs that could be
My dreams are but reflections
Of a future that never was
For I let my convenience
Outshine the true faith
If God feeds the birds
She would surely come with a silo
(Forget about coming with a plate)
But today
Today,I unburden my dark soul
I come clean in confession
And let life for the trickled blood
I,worthy of a slain lamb
I aborted.

Word 6: Tik tok

Tik tok,Tik tok
Tunamove toes tukitalk
Side by side under the moonlight
Stars zinashine zinabrighten the night
Next to me ni malkia
Fikra zangu ameniibia
Huyu dem ni mhot,unaeza dhani ye hula jua
Nikimkosa rohoni mmejaa ukiwa,nmekaukiwa
Kila time 2nameet yeye husteal my breathe
Ananiwacha weak ka kesi ya ruto hague
In my eyes ashaseti specks,wengine see-ezi intake
Ingest,labda niwaweke list ya friends
Simu yeye hapigi nkuflash
C ati juu ni waste anaexpel but
Mapenziye kwangu ni ngumu ku express
Hata kupitia text
C siri,roho ashasteal,ashabury
Next thing am thinking,venye tutamarry.

Word 7:Nimechoka

Nimechoka
God kuwa patient na mimi
Daktari alinipa dawa kwa msalaba
But sitaki kupona
Hizo syringe za holy spirit
Siziskii,mi bado nazidi kuzini
On His face na spit
Nimechoka
Kuwa mtoto wa shetani
Uchungu wa kufa daily
Na baada ya mchwa kuna moto inaningoja
Na si eti ntaungua cku moja,Milele itanionja
Mi Nmechoka
Kushed crocodile tears kila usiku
Nikidhani naeza meza sin
Nani shine the Truth
Nkisahau Huezi replace mwamba na mamba
Nimechoka
Kugive up my life for goals unworthy
So navua hii jersey
Ya kudesire things ungodly
Nafuata Christ only
Better than sacrifice ni kutii the Holy
So nipate kwa magoti,kwa maombi
Repentance ya kuafuata dunia,kwake narudi
Vaccination ya blood,dosage ya ya body
1 times 3 prescription ni Yesu,Aniache nikiwa healthy
Cause I'm sick of being messy
Nmechoka kuweka records temporary.

Hey Jesus

Hey Jesus,
What happened those three days
Did the Life raise the dead
Didn't the light conquer darkness
I got lost in the battle
Hey Jesus,
Didn't the Word stand the cross
Wasn't my weakness crucified
The frail left in the tomb
The burial of the old man
Hey Jesus,
Was that blood shed in vain
The rupture of your veins
Deep down I languish in pain
Oh! silent tears I rain
Hey Jesus,
Look at this dirty soul
Hear a prayer from the broken
Sweep away the dead pieces
Make me worth the lamb slain.

I promised God

IN 2015
I promised God I'd quit team mafisi
Finally tusichana twa jirani tungepata amani
How Gladys angekua happy cause
Ndani ya hii roho ange have monopoly
I promised God I'd be the person to Watch
Cause ngeMspendia Time kwa magoti,kwa maombi
Badala ya jam session zangu zingekua kesha zaconfession
Mushenee kwa ploti haingesteal my attention
From reading His Word na kuskiza from him,Dad
I promised God,
This year would be different
Hange need ku smell malice kila mwisho wa wiki
Cause nimequit malies za kulewa chini ya maji
Nikiexpect kuamka ka siyuko wet
Lying kwa corridor za mtaa half naked
Ama nijipate kwa bed after kiufornicate
Guilt ikirule head,Instead
Ningespend those weekends
Niki spread His love to wale needy
Ku share hats wirth to me,sadaka real
Kutia bidii kwa ile kidogo nmebarikiwa badala ya lawama
Kusaidia wale wako chini badala ya kuwanyanyasa
Maliza umaskini;but ckuwa makini
Kutimiza all my dreams cause me sio heavenly being
Ain't perfect to keep any promise,s0 2016 ikiwa nigh
There's only one thing I 'll ask on my knees
God,nipatie will that consults your Spirit
Before nmake ahadi kwako ama any human being

Dear Jesus

Dear Jesus
Nlisoma eti we ndo light
Macho yako ni kama moto
So naomba umelt hii roho ya wax
Niwache mambo ya mpango wa kando
Kama kukesha usiku mzima nikiwatsapp na kudownload apps google store
But siezi take 20mins kukuuliza whats up in your store for me
Kuonea wenye umebariki wivu na kulalalia bahati yao
Then nacomplain mbona bado milango yangu imefungwa
Kufornicate kila wiki but kudhihaki maprostitutes,hypocrite wa sexual immorality
Na dandia ideas za world kudispense the Truth
Foundaton ya mchanga,Mungu mwamba nakuomba
Nipee macho yanaona what you need ya kubelieve the unseen
Niflee from sin na my heart kwako nigive
Daily judge me Daddy,so I come clean in repetance
Cause am sure of your mercy utaniforgive
Ulisema wote utalipa sawa hata ule aliingia jioni ama ule wa kurauka
Unto you I humble LORD...

Throw care to the wind

Throw care to the wind
Let your fear drown
Life is but an ocean
Some pour,some take

Break this heart

Break this heart
Whats left of it
But an emptiness beyond me
Burn it to ashes
Won't it add to your happiness
The hysterical laughter with your friends
When you bash my broke ass
How fakest me be
But... Please...
Don't come to me teared
Calling on wee night hours
Begging for the comfort of my arms
When Muthoni stabs your back
When you have a fight with Anyango
When loneliness pockets your frail soul
You may as well cling to your pillow
And ask it for warmth and understanding
Or meditate on your kerchief
Wiping tears of a fish
Don't.. Don't Text me apologies
The type of sh*t "I still love you"
For all I know you tank of hurt
I got none to fill your jar of hearts

Drowned

I am drowning misery in gulps
My glass is half empty now
As I wail to starry heavens
There's none sound silenced sobs
There's none shoulder a crown of thorns
I wear and walk the clad of shame
I tear and talk the mad of lame
My guitar's broken but in suicidal chords
Hum me the melodies of Angels
Sooth me with songs too divine heavens
Soon that shall be my path
Welcomed in the airs of rest
Drowned,defeated.

Psalm 25

What do I give you
To be right in your eyes
What did they do
Those who are stupid rich
What less am I
Poverty devours my bones
I creek at emaciated hope
With but faint rhetoric thoughts
What criteria do you use
Lord!!
To give some,to deficit others.

Lost for you

Was it not your smile
That stole the rainbow
And the beauty of the stars
It pocketed a heart
Wasn't those lips
That made bees run out of nectar
Tempting the purest of angels
None much sweeter
Was not your sublime chords
The voice emptied resentful holes
The sands of a broken past
And filled them with hope
Hope of finding true romance
Didn't your diamond heart
Engulf the brittle of souls
To cherish, to love
In fantasies, in purity
I'm lost for you

Take me to the end

Take me to the end
Where life is no more
Where rest finds the dead
Angels open eternal doors
Of a glory that not fade
Of His presence to adore
Heaven.

Tell me what you want

How many times do I chase you
Begging for a drop of your romance
Longing to taste your divine beauty
I hunger of your cute lips
Till when shall I hunger
What else should I give
When all was left is hurt
Your gravity love stole my heart
Your thorny love pricks my heart
What else do I give
Is there any more to do
If I flew you to the skies
And fed you twinkling stars
Yet you shut your sexy eyes
Said you feel nothing for us
I did tear my pride
Be my master, I will serve
Till death do us apart
I will stand by your side
But you feel that ain't enough
Your words taste of whining
Your deeds reek of insatiability
Sell your pride to the devil
Let grumbling elope to hell
Msichana wa Kariuki
I'm done with feeling crushed
Tell me what you want

Live

Cracks
Dying of all that's left
Bleeding hearts love best
Have me and burn the rest
Heal
Holes
Depths of a painful mourn
Dig deep why you're lone
Bury the past carry on
Fill
Breathe
Let go of innocence slain
Bear the loss to gain
Hope is rose again
Live.

Word 4:Haya madeni

Weeh! Warui wa Maina

Weeh!Warui wa Maina
Is that you stumbling home
Reeking of rotten liquor
Whistling songs of victory
Kwìgana ùria ù mùrüme
(Praising the gentleman in you)
Why don't you put your words to action
And roast your 'thingira' tonight
I'm tired of unstirred honey
Weeh! Warui wa Maina
Who are you demanding food from
Did you dig a well of money
To quench your lazy ass
Your land lies in waste
A good for nothing husband
Who will harvest your ripe oranges
Weeh!Warui wa Maina
'Cia ifango' have fed your muscles
They are no longer bulging like Wa Njoros
How I miss your tight arms
Now but feeble bones and withered hands
But today,all that will change
Úmuthi uyu,You'll see total blackout
I'm done with your defective transformer
*thingira - Man's hut
*cia ifango - 2nd generation alcohol
*umuthi - today

Word 4:Haya madeni

Kama si haya madeni
Landlord kuweka vifuli mbili
Haingefill kama extra security
Kugombana na bibi daily
Haingeturn kua my hobby
Kila time naona mathe wa githeri
Singekua na go missing
Aaah!haya madeni,madeni haya
Kama si haya madeni
Caro would still be my darling
Alimelt roho yangu, kaiwacha mataani
List ya friends imekua almost empty
Its a shame hawataki kuitwa relatives
Aliyesema ukweli, mkono mtupu haurambwi
Usimwambie toka,mwonyeshe a wallet with nothing
Yatanimaliza haya madeni
Yamenichosha haya madeni
Hesabu haibalance ni kama a/cs za serikali
Mifuko yangu iko positive correlated with poverty
Bleeding pen is only thing that's worthy
Nimehit my walls, this is the end
But sikati tamaa, Too rich for that
Nyama foundation ni rock, iite my heart
Magoti chini, kwa Mungu naamini
One day ntabreak bank,Ntaclose payables na balance blank
One day... One day...

Sun will shine again

I have only pain left
I have none more peace
Break the walls on me
Bury the frail in eternity
leave me for dead
Pour the pangs of hell
A point of no return
The sun will shine again
The dark shall see the light
We shall rise again
Let go of all burdens
Let go of all pain.

RIP Nyagi

Tears tell hidden stories
Words are lost in this flood
Thoughts are but your memories
Why did you leave soon
Without a wink,without a farewell
Anguish dwells in my sunk soul
The strong one is now broken
What shall replace your smile
Your dance "Nyagi!" "Nyagi"
Gone with your wisdom
Gone with your "utana"
To rest with your kind
In peace, with the saints.
RIP Shosho
Sunrise 1926,Sunset 2016
"Utana" - kindness

Angel of my heart

its a sweet smile sunshine
that which says morning
amid chuckles, little hands
angel on earth, divine
angel of my heart, baby.

Tonight

Tonight
I will send a rose to your lips
For you to taste my nectar love
And feel the warmth of heaven
Tonight
Envious eyes will bulge
As I spoil you with glitters
Jewellery and happiness most
They will build castles of imagination
Wishing to be you.
Tonight
Wamama wa ploti
will get something to gossip
For I will not let them sleep
They will find not peace
Your screams from surprise
As I give you all you desire
I will break my pride for you
I will cook chapati for you
The dishes,the mat,the clothes
I will treat you my night patient
I will be bankrupt for you
I will spend all my love tonight.
To the person I love most in the world

Dreams

Dreams
to live in shadows
for fear of failure bites
ashamed of the dust
comfort zone is sweet
not...not
Dreams
to pay hate with hate
and my power for revenge
let go heavy heart
let go of rage and war
Dreams
living for the best
my short breathe used well
give out to the unfortunate
speak life, light others

Moon will lie

the same moon that smiles
as I walk miles and miles
looking for bread and dimes
is the one that shone its light
when I conquered the Ukambani plains
and will die of merry cries
when l dance fiery high
dreams realized
the moon will die,the moon will lie.

Shed scales

Broken pieces scatter
Flesh with dust don't matter
Strength before I fade
The scales are shed
The scales are dead

Way past pain

There's a way past pain
Though not rosy as a rose
Thorns and thistles on my heart
Thy tongue and lips are misery
Thrown into an abyss by each kiss
Thrilled past my conscious to defeat
That's my way past pain

NOW

Now you think you're my drug
For I can't go a second without you
Now you believe you own me
For each my breathe counts on you heart
Now you say I'm chained
You swept me to your cage
Now you wear a sheepish smile
Upbeat that I am your slave
Now you praise your mastery
You drowned my heart in an abyss
Now you forget my soul is in me
It's space that you rented
Now you think my soul is defeated
Yet a wounded lion walks like a cat
And a cat plays their game cautiously
Now you beat your chest full of pouring breasts
Supple,bouncing with inflated ego
Yet you should weep in waterfall tears
Cause you will pay all in oceans
Start practicing the art of being haunted by my ghosts.

Waiting for love

I'm lost tween a smile
And a spirit so lowly
Each fantasy of your crystal
Shiny face in my far fetched dreams
You know I miss you like crazy
My fingers itch for your flawless skin
Not to dig in ways sensual
But pleasure in warmth loving
To taste the furnace of charm
My heart so perplexed off it's cage
I am worried that you ain't here
Could another have the lucky arms
Such arms so strange that your heart mourns
For I feel mine beat in sad tones
Angst and melancholy and tears
I long to hold you my love
I miss sharing the taste of the moon
The angels that flow soul to soul
I miss the useless whispers
Words that crawled pores and pour
Into our spirits so young and adventurous
I yearn to walk the thousands miles
Yet your voice be my sole solace
In my anguish webbed in distance
I sit here bleeding, waiting
Waiting for our love

Hands,Small and Cold

Hands small and cold
Tiny smile and myriad cries
A chest clogged, fever and cough
Fever and cough,thought was tough
You the sun shone
Hands small and cold
Dreamy eyes saw off miles
Plain to plain,past stone and dust
Thought to quit but held fast
Never alone you got my back
Hands;still small and cold
Feeble but gifted of words
Beyond the frail poetry flows
The old is left,the dead is closed
Since I was born, thanks to the Lord
Happy birthday to me

Word 3

Tulishindwa kuwacha story za mpango wa kando
Tukaamua tuanzishe campaign ya C-word
Cause reality ilikuwa ngumu ku handle
The truth that's Jesus
Tunafanya research ya the best cd,si word
Sexual immorality inarule our evil hearts
Fleshly things are hell damned
I once was there,I now how it hurts
Ile time sin iliniacha weaker,kushinda crow ya 5 am cock
Then nikameet Jesus,hio ilikuwa turning point folks
Alinipa maji ya uzima,hakumix kenya cane na coke
Halafu akanisho,
A spoonful of blood a day keeps the devil away
For He saw it worth,to sacrifice a 33year sinless
Awe mocked on the cross,to rest our fatal burdens
So sikiza siz na bro
Hii sijaandika for show
But to let you know
The value of God's kingdom
Is worth one lost soul
Ndio maana Christ alikubali kuwa torn
To give us access to all
Beautiful, divine,everlasting
No shortcuts ile day utadie
Your deeds zitakujustify
Go on,take your time
World or eternity, decide.

Praying for you

Tears full of anguish flowing
Emptying your lost heart
Rivers made of failure
Darkness bound a frail soul
You got nothing left
Death calls out your name
Never let go yet
Never say end yet
I'm praying for you.
Don't leave me hopeless
Your eyes shine a future
The smiles you've created
The lives you've changed
Your bonfire words light hearts
Don't stem down the inspiration
The shoulder that anchors dreams
Its not over yet
I'm praying for you.
Forget about the good riddance
To lose breathe to free pain
This scourge that eats away
Every tiny piece of peace left
Just bury your head on sank knees
Let out the cry to touch heavens
My fallen angel with broken wings
I'm praying for you.

You stole me wholly

From the day I lay my eyes
And my breathe was but gone
The beauty of that smile
A magnificent curve between your lips
From the very day my heart
And my stomach grew wings
Those butterflies, the rushing blood
My arms hunger your presence
From the day I greeted you
I swear I never washed
This mark of prettiness unforgettable
The softness of your angelic hands
From that day you said
I feel the same way too
You stole me wholly
I feed from the pot of us.

Psalm 24

And I shall trust in the Lord
With all my heart and soul
For in patient strides he held me
And gave me the best than I wanted.

Psalm 23

I've tasted of the Lord
Surely, He is sweet
A fountain of grace
Mercy and comfort too

Psalm 22

I looked at skies with a sheer cry
Hoping the stars shone my heart
But darkness, all dark and blue
Greeted me with a cold embrace
I shouted to the mountains
With but a dying will
Hope faded in the wails
And I sank in knees helpless
None words,tears and anguish
A heart leaking failure and dust
And he who dwells in not man's weariness
Heard me and wiped heavy eyes.

Psalm 21

I shall sing of your praises God
For who else would love be
When a broken you see healed
When the dead are invincible.

Psalm 20

Your mercies and love abound me
I break but never wither
I wrong but never gone
I, weak of flesh
You fill the Holy ghost.

Psalm 19

In prayer I sought the Lord
With promises of never sinning again
"Oh! Ye weak flesh," He said
"How can effluent say to a river
Lets enjoin in mutual purity,
How useful is a refrigerator to an Eskimo
If sooner the ice won't melt for the hot sun
What is man's promises to God
If he wills not partake the Holy Ghost?"

I'll be waiting for you

Wipe those teary eyes dear
Clot your bleeding heart honey
I know you feel hurt by the miles
How you hate missing shared smiles
I,too, long for your soft whispers
But worry not heartmate
At the end of it all
I will be waiting for you
Sometimes I wish I was there
To hold you with love rich arms
To kiss your forehead and cuddle
To warm you with silly jokes
But we have lives to build
Labour for our future family
Worry not heartmate
At the end of it all
I will be waiting for you
A thousand kilometres seem far
Yet my heartbeat is enough
To assure me of your love
If only I owned eternity
I'd trade it to have you near
But I am a meagre mortal
With none but wishes
Yet,worry not heartmate
At the end of it all
I will be waiting for you

Psalm 18

Those of the earth are dust
And their lives full of anguish
But those who live not for flesh
Joy in the beauty of the spirit.

I found her in you

I needed a person patient
A person to share my fears
A person to love the stupid me
I needed a woman by my side
Not a girl to quit on empty pockets
Not a girl who is crushed by my weirdness
Not an immature brat full of insecurities
Only a woman of her principles
Only a woman who yearns to build
A woman worth a dime
A woman so valuable,she is priceless
Glad I found her in you.

All for you

Look at the sky
Look at the beautiful blue
How it smiles for you
Look at the ocean
Look at the powerful waters
How they bow for your divine beauty
Listen to the morning birds singing
Listen to the sweet tunes
How they hum for your magnificent
Listen to my pumping heart
Listen to its drum like beats
How it thuds for you
How it longs to be yours.

Word 2

Wanarap ka ma amateur
Itabidi niwapeleke macha
Kwa Mutua awafanyie maendeleo chapchap
Ndio waweze jua kucatch up
Na flow yangu hot kushinda jua
Na bado hawezi ni nusia
Juu fuel yangu ni Word
Naskia eti in town there is word
Promoter alininywesha maji my dolarri
Buh alisahau nimezoea kudrink ile Holy
Thats why spit yangu huwaacha kwa magoti....

Fountain of comfort

Where is peace when needed most
Where is life when death knocks
You fake a smile to carry on
You jab at the air to let it go
You cry it out to forget it all
The lustre and elegance is all gone
Where are the people you called friends
Where are those who shared in your plate
Those who swore to stand with you
Like sheep without a shepherd
Like a farm invaded by locusts
They gone their separate ways
They have eaten all that's beautiful.
I will help you dry your tears
And we will lie in your bed of pain
We will harp of your helpless strings
Though once healed you will vanish
I will be your fountain of comfort.

A journey to the start

A step is the first of a thousand miles
But from zero I began
With none but the Almighty
Icy paths and stormy highways
Life deprived smiles faded
Joy was but another thesaurus word
Less were better days on the move
Oh if only my legs had a voice
Oh if only my eyes could talk
But God ain't a slumberland buddy
His divine presence a peace beyond mind
Only that did I need
To get to the edge of the start

Psalm 17

In my weeping and despair
In my discomfort and lowest
I shall call upon you Lord
My quench, My deliverer

Psalm 16

My mouth shall not lack your praises
My heart shall not shun humming joyful songs
For who else would love dirt
Who else would see beauty in my imperfections

Psalm 15

I thirst for your mercies
For how beautiful is your grace
I long for your presence
For how sweet your glory.

Psalm 14

Break me and mould me
I am beyond dust
This breathe belongs to you
Make it live for you.

Damned

I have lost the battle again
The dead worst has tasted life
I have exhumed the hellfire lake
Sinking the purity of salvation
When did this happen to me
How did I backslide to vanity
There comes the vertigo of a faded eternity
The dark angels rejoice of my name
The devil joys of stealing a new soul
He is merry of a roast buddy
My fate is sealed but with a pint of Grace
Hello God of 70 x 7 chances
Snatch me back to your Glory.

When I put a ring on it

Fairy tales, secret gossips
Slow beats,yearning hearts
They all will fade
When I finally put a ring on it
Lost tears,baseless fears
Midnight cold,envious fights
They all will fade
When I finally put a ring on it
Wishful thoughts, lone moments
Empty promises, fruitless wait
They all will fade
When I finally put a ring on it

Wishes for an Ex

Hope you meet a dark soul
And fall in love with them
Wish he breaks your heart
And calls you a bitch and f*d names
That this cold world can pour
May his lips find not sweet names
May his tongue not utter "darling"
Wish he melts your cheap ego
Into a river of teary anguish
Hope you spend sleepless nights
Wishing you could have me nigh
Hope your eyes red like crimson
Wishing you shouldn't have left
May he forget the anniversaries
And call you a fat good for nothing cow
May death be your appetite
And desperation your only escape
Wish you wish a hug from a nobody
To wash away some pain
Only to taste another player
Who breaks what's left of that beneath your chest
May all the men who date you
Serve you love in bitter portions
That way
Only that way
Will you know what I feel.

Show me the one

Who calms fatigued sobs
Show me that person
Show me the answer to my troubles
Forget those who speak inspiration
Forget tongues that uplift the lowly
Words crumble in the sight of agony
I'm done with perishable life
Where is the hope of debris
Him behind those testimonies
The one they drink His blood daily
I too,wanna cannibalise his body
Where is that Son of Man
With but a divine tongue
The king that always serve
The lamb with bruised palms
A carpenter of worn souls
Mend a broken being.

Dear Comfort Zone

Free me from this shackles
I ain't losing one more again
It's enough of what you've stolen
Be satisfied with the rotten lot
How did you creep brittle bones
How you manoeuvre static brains
Throw me back to the alpha
Where passion fuelled every nerve
Let me solace in oblivion
Of withered and leaking dreams
Dear comfort zone
I wanna see life once more.

Broken love

Spilt milk draws worthless tears
Uncertainty births useless fears
There is nothing for us left here
We lost it all when we young
We never took time to learn
Thought ours the world, infatuated love.
Now dreams,wrestled away the naive
Behind our facade smiles, there's none to give
But chaos and desire to leave
Lover,don't shelf truth in a curtain
Humans are born of dust and stains
If you can find another with sweet rain
Let not a decision all your strength drain
Follow your heart with less pain
Happiness been my wish for you darling.

Psalm 13

In the day of trouble
I cried to the world
Her ears she shut
I begged of my friends
They were nowhere to be seen
In despair, I called heavens
My withered soul was restored

Psalm 12

The Lord loves the lost
Those with tainted souls
For they hide not but humble
They let bare their sins for cleansing

Psalm 11

The slaves tire of tears
Who stands by their side?
The oppressor turns a blind eye
To whom will they cry?
They seek a shoulder to lie
Only you God will they rely.

Conversations with death

Once a wise man said
Pain choose not its victim
How can outta a billion
That it should a tent build
Agony thrives at the heart of my heart
Why did it have to be her
Hey cruel shadow of death
Why did you steal her
She,a friend beyond a lover
She,dried my worries with a shiny smile
Can you this teary waterfall powder
Hey Mrs. Death
Can you take her place in this shattered heart
Oh! How her eyes were made of hope
How her arrow words breathe life
Her touch had a class of angels
She was the diamond of coal
And what's left of me now
You say her soul is in peace at forever
But am a million seconds to forever
Will I stay dead till forever
Without her earth is a lifeless sphere
Hey there the silent thief
Couldn't you had wait a little longer
Till I told her she was beautiful
Till she heard I appreciate her friendship
Till I hug her and calm her fears
Till she heard of how I dreamt about her
Won't you answer me cruel monster
If you can't replace the hole in my soul
Fill it with dozens of your peace
I wanna grab her from forever.

RIPdad

Will you be waiting with open arms
And a lustre of golden touch
Will your face be a shine of glory
And your eyes crystal beautiful
Will your tongue pour praise tunes
When we meet in heaven
Are your wings like of angels
A white robe and immortal breathe
Do they have invincible dreams
Do they drink of flawless joy
Do their hearts superfluous of love
Back there in heaven
My tears no longer show
For my peace is rested in God
He spoke assurance to me heart
I will live to make you proud
His kingdom my greatest goal
Till we meet in heaven.
RIP Dad.
1961- 2016

Slow Dance

I feel the rhythm of angels
I hear a voice like rushing waters
Blood surges ruptured veins
I can barely feel the pain
Another divine taken to rest
Freely falling, enjoy the vertigo
We all dread this inevitable
But I,
Will flow in dirgeful contents
I,
Sank in a slow dance to immortality.
# RIPdad

Feed you Love

Years have corroded beauty
Will tears wash your regret
Your heart open to every Joe
Youth lost unto fruitless fantasies
Come to me desperate soul
Lets swim in His comforting mercies
Her blood is hot like her curves
Her naive heart wants none but me
She says death is a better pill
Than swallow a broken love
Hey there sweetheart!
I will feed you the best of love
I will feed you the Word.
Stories written on your staggering figure
You feel me in the heat of fornication
You say lets go to cloud nine
But I got no wings to fly
I can fix not broken souls
Yet I will carry you in arms devoid glory
I will lead to the cross of victory
I will lead you to Jesus Christ.

Woe to the heart that falls in love

Her chest is a salty flood
Her soul is wrecked in agony
How pouring a waterfall face
Tears bury broken parts
Woe to the heart that sinks in love
My carefree hands typed words
Simple words can frail strong bonds
Words that kill what they create
"I love you" to a cold "its over"
Woe to the heart that sinks in love
In my knees I pray for healing
I never meant to hurt you
But our diamonds turned brittle
Ain't worth fighting another battle
Woe to the heart that sinks in love

Psalm 10

The dusk is stealing the dawn
Our faint hearts are setting suns
We pump not divine blood
We rejected the Word that's the Son
God's wrath will pour on us
Poor we,angry flames taste
Our foolishness has killed us
Our pride bury the remnant of a fading identity.

Psalm 9

The enemies scatter
They run for solace
My God has finally spoken
He has heard my deepest cry.

Thirst for Light

A lone wanders off the safety of 99
In search of sweeter,unhealthy pastures
Its body a valley of feebly dry bones
Aging from the spiritual drought
Sinking in the waters once floated
Devoid of the faith formerly decorated
Yet it cease not race away
Deafening its heart from the Almighty's voice
Building castles in sands,unworthy cause
30 coins of silver for a costly loss
What bliss is in a non perfect sphere
Tears,paranoia, insomnia from nightmares?
Oh!my soul bleeds for a panacea
A divine shoulder to cure my fears
A true friend my worries to share
My saviour,my Lord
Drill a hole and shine a ray of hope
Drive the darkness save a wrecked soul.

Love you while you are here

A smile is as perishable as time
Joy don't last unto forever
Someone special is taken for granted
Gratitude is swept under the carpet
Great moments sooner fall dead
Always funny how fast we forget
Till Mr. Life takes back what's His
And our mind flood with sad stories
Floating upon poignant memories
Wishes as weapons against grief
How you lament things you miss
But I choose to live in now
To share with your live heart beat
I won't hide under a prideful tongue
Only to wail unto a deaf corpse
I won't wait for another day
To say what I can say today
I don't want to shed worthless tears
I choose to love you when you're here.

Only the skies can save a soul in love

Used to be the envied lovebirds
Used to be the talk of town
You created seas full of romance
And deep like Juliet sank
Only the skies can save a soul in love
Trust him not with your heart
He'd break it,he's an expert
A friend speaks but true words
I foresaw the vexation in the wild
Only the skies can save a soul in love
For a heart his was a rock
The kind that felt no remorse
Now your pissed wanna be alone
Your agony told in tears lone
Only the skies can save a soul in love
Bleed like a waterfall to your fall
Till the pain slowly fades
Fix yourself and you'll understand
Every beautiful story has a sad end
Only the skies can save a soul in love.

Letting go of this one

Shall I sing unto you the morning song my love
Just like the melodies of the twin birds
Those that in graceful steps dance
To make your gloomy face shine this once
Shall I summon the skies pregnant with blue
To spread it's matchless splendour to you
It's painted the cooling color too
I wanna share your sad,your blue
Shall I cry an ocean off my two streams
To wash & sink your pain my cream
Your agony got me living in this anguished realm
Tiredof a sleep with no love in my dreams
Shall the depths not swallow a man
One who's torn asking questions to answers none
I feel defeated in my solitude burn
Darling,I am letting go of this one.

Word

Sifa ya kuku ni kuchakura
Sifa ya mluhya ni chakula
Ile kitu kuku huenjoy ikiwa raw
Mluhya huenjoy ikiwa processed
One form bad for you
but better for another
Poison for one,meat for the other.

My second love is going down

Ooh! My second love is going down
Aii! My second love is trampled
She's trickling like the grain seconds in the hourglass
Her beauty is drained to her former love
My second love is like a bruised tiger
Who goes on hunting 'spite her injury
Her hunger is not quenched by grass
Neither by the game of a hunt not hers
But her strength has waned
Her heart is frail and teeth feeble
My second love is on her deathbed
I fought for my second love
Not with much vigour but hope
Wishes that we could hold a lil' bit
Oh! If only we could hold a lil' bit
But have we not been here before
Winning to start the war afresh
Yet all that time I believed in love
That which came in digressed shadows
And conquered the dark with a ray
The light of our love is blued
The place of light is shattered.

~ For the relegated Sunderland (29th April 2017)

I don't have hate for you

I don't have hate for you
But love without love
I placed your case in the cold
You may chill with fever
And enjoy the beauty of the dark
The stars that stare in resentment
The moon that blurs in remorse
The wind that blows with a vengeance
Till the light pierce the growling clouds
You yet to taste the real fury of me.

Friday, July 20, 2018

Hold me

Won't you hold my hand
As I fall in this ingrained tendency
Of letting my heart to temporary tenants
Knife and hurt for rent
Knife and blood for rent.
Give me a stinging edge
To keep away starved hunters
They lick for selfish desires
They say the bee doesn't matter
Honey for their stomach
Sweetness for their stomach
Build the wall too tall
I will shut the banks of love
From a myriad one hit samplers
This ocean sips a lone wave
A lake for a one swimmer
A lake for a single swimmer.

Warriors Lament

The warriors lament on the hills
Their graveyards reek of remorse
Hate swords piercing selfless hearts
They shed their blood in vain
A hungry man with pocketfuls stones
Picketing for a bellied politician
Slandering the brotherly tear
Fifty shillings worth of bread
A miracle enough for a blind one
Another one calls theirs superior
Belittling the hand salting their food
In defence of the class that rules
A class caring not of his shelter
He prides in a vacuumed illusion
The warriors lament in the jungle
Their voice smell of failure
Quashed dreams of a united nation
The country foresaw in rubbles.

Good till it hurts

Fire is good till its an inferno
Flames devour the sacred of treasures
Rain is beautiful till it floods
Wrecking the intimate of souls
Tears are cute till you sob
Leaking from a broken love
Yea tears are cute till you sob
Swimming in an ocean of mistrust
Love is but a game till you lose
Yea love is fun till you lose it.

Red ruins white

So you decided to come back
And shut me with chocolate words
To slide me in your trap
The lies of your winter love
You've got my heart floored
Tricking a frail one to the flawed
Like a sheep I head for slaughter
Can't see past sharp blinders
Scars write of how I am torn
Stuck and drowned in a deadly zone
The wrong one who loves right
Where the red ruins the white

Dear Darling

Dear darling,
I saw the sun crying this morning
It said it won't shine,all out of envy
For the beauty of the light in your eyes
Ah! The beautiful twinkling eyes of yours
Made the sunlight look like a ray
Your natural beauty made the sun artificial
My love
The wind sweetly whispers your name
How it steals my every whistle, my each song
You planted a tattoo on my lips
And watered it with your kisses
Now I can't get you out of my mouth
Oh! The mouth pours the contents of the heart
My cream
Though the price of milk climbs the highest peak
I won't stop calling you that
I'd rather be lost in your arms than
Awashed in the wealth of a comfort palace
With every drip of blood in my vessel
I hear you travel all me routes
I pray to live to cherish you
To unconditionally, you and me forever.

They that don't rest

There are those that rest not
Up here,down there,always somewhere
Not in search of dime nor Life
But in gossip and hearsay, to lavish
To strangle breaking hearts by a pile of myopic perceptions
Pray for them
Every word that paints their lips
Is a mix of envy,evil and empty talk
They bouy around in litres of pride
Pouring unto others their bitter selves
Their songs are drummed in arrogance
Their dance, a rave of others defeat
Pray for them
What are the days of their lives
But a sure sum of vain showoffs
They lie in spiritual deception
Oblivious of the speck in their minds
One day, tears in prayers
One dear,tearing new converts
Before they taste a drop of eternal fire
See them a pint of Christ
Pray for them.

Musings

My lips seek your word
In the heat of a charmed kiss
I find the yes in the meeting
The twining of hearts in love.

Gone are the days

I remember like light does dawn
How we used to smile at problems
We would laugh out loud
Dance our souls to forget all
Gone are those beautiful days
Family was the word most respected
Kids were the treasure of the society
A meal at a friend was like a meal home
A battle for one,a fight for us all
Gone are the beautiful days
Nights were ploughed by scary stories
About myths,about witches,ghetto glories
Mornings be greeted by "chobo-ngoto"
We loved football before we knew of Arsenal
Gone are the beautiful days
We'd never run out of games
Kalongolongo, brikicho* give 'em names
Scrap metal and used bottle were a side venture
How I miss the "mathamba" adventure
Gone are those beautiful days
In hollow poignancy I journey distant
To a place where fun is lost in selfie
Social media buried true friendship
Video games a craze, a crave for obesity
Discipline a kid to clash with their parents,
Present
Gone are the lively awesome days.

Kingdom of the damned

Walking on water is weak
Funny that you can't swim
Worse that you can't sink
In the deep beauty of sin
The shortlived joy of a perished world
None lasts,eternal flames
If from dust goes dust
Everything that rises falls again
Why struggle to ascend?
Why sink in pertinent knees?
When you can patent lousy needs
To the wilting ways of joy
Why believe in what you can't see
An omnipotent unavailable almighty?
Does he ever read of your pain
In his seat full of glitter and praise
Why call on such a homicidal being
Who saves by shedding blood?
Why hope in an afterlife promise
If you can flourish in my chill spot
A palace made of eternal flames
Where we sing dirges as lullabies
The compassionate pit for the blind
Worshipping the master of deceit
We, the servants of Lucifer
We, the warriors of a damned kingdom.

Unconditional love

A tear is worth a dozen words
Just like a smile heals a wounded one
Little fingers tangle a rough hand
Folded in unconditional love.

The say of a potbellied man

Why
Go for fragmented parts
When
I have it all as a package
Said
A potbellied man to a cute
In need of an athletic bodied.

What you left behind

Two months down the line
Since the world last loaned you breathe
Memories are not the only legacy
If only you could once see
Of what you left behind
With a whip full of love
You made a straight path
With arms full from care
You made a man from a boy
With a tongue swimming in advice
You taught me how to best live
You the reason ink pours today
The secret behind this guy
Though you be gone till I cease
Happy father's day to your spirit.

Tiz the season to get a mate
I choose my blanket
For nine months for a look alike
Rather a cup of tea than that route hike

Mera Piara

I heard the lilies sing
Of a flower so beautiful than they
Whose fragrance melts mountains
The lilies sang of you
I heard the morning twitters
Humming along a gracious melody
With beaks full of envy and praise
The twitters hum of you
I saw the sun set with defeat
And surrender,the war on who is divine
It had no doubt on your superiority
The sun lost to you.
I saw the women the world
Has ever gifted my heart
Some it danced,some it sank, some it dunked
But you stood it still
My heart stopped for you

My Son will be a fisi

My son will be a fisi
Akinyi will no more flaunt her goodies
Like a seesaw swung in innocence
Those mountains shall stand hiked
Woe to the honey hidden in Akinyi's hives
My son will be a "fisi'
To slake Wambui's lecherous hunger
In lands unploughed,he shall sow
His bedroom prowess will be his hoe
Woe to the man Wambui calls boo
My son will be a "fisi'
Let Mwende save her tears for him
He shall carcass on her insecurities
Break her heart after a night of titillating sex
Only to dump her for a sooner to be Ex
My son will be a "fisi"
Like father, like son
Lighting hardly strikes same place
Park your car wherever there's space
So long you ready to pay the rates.

Sugarcane in the washroom

I married an adolescent for a wife
I saw her with my bare eyes
She must have no manners
She stared at me with no answers
I saw her cooking ugali with a broom
I caught her eating sugarcane in the washroom
I will send my wife back to her parents
Or to the pub where we first met
She can whisk away her insatiable appetite
To no longer run my silo petite
She likes eating sugarcane in the washroom
I'm a man of a kind heart
I'd forgive her if it were easy
But she brought Kamau along
And lent him a portion of my supper
They ate my sugarcane in the washroom.

It's Stolen

Its stolen
Again
Its stolen
The dark master
Ink lost its beauty
The fingers have wilted
Again
We shed tears of defeat
Again
We lament helplessly
Over literary lose
Again
Its stolen
Faded him to his giver.
RIP Elechi Amadi,Nigerian author(famous for the concubine)

Solitude

It's a call to madness
It's the death of life
A heart harp the strings of darkness
Dance to the beats like knife
Cut me deep to solitude
The waters shall name my soul
An island
Hollow
Lone.

Talking to my shoes

Hey there buddy!
I know you've seen miles
And tasted the best of friction
You know the smell of sand and mud
Too, the texture of Akinyi's mat
The beauty who stole me heart
Your best friend is Mwikali's balcony
I get solace in her kind granary
You've stood smelly socks,
My feet,earned you a couple knocks
You faded your sole to protect a soul
You've endured my heartless throws
Been my companion when I am lone
Yet;
When I see another one whose nice
I will forget all that's been
I will give you up to your demise
I will dash you to the bin.

Queen of the Night

You came with a bottle of wine
Cheers,lost in chaffy cheers
With an emptiness of a sheepish smile
Crackled voice, weight too much for eyes
Tempting a tongue that nauseates at lies
"Everyone envies my angelic body
Pretend not you desire a taste, nope,of it"
The noise from the crowd surely moves you
But the wind ferries dust and garbage
Both are not good for your health
Take the mirror that of truth sparkle
See what rust you've become
They call you the queen of the night
Will you rule darkness eternally
No one talks about the future
My little hole that sinks ships
Don't drown in the water praises
Crumble the fame with shoes full a life
Though humility be a thorny bed
The last one switches off the light.

Remember my name, God

I come before you empty
I've lost all in trials and errors
You've seen the multitude of heartbreaks
Been quite while enemies slay me
Though I forsake you many a time
Please remember my name God.
I've been in the desert too long
I forgot the taste of eternal water
I'm thinning to my very death
Devoid of your grace and light
Though I lack of words in prayer
Please remember my name God
I have let fears rule my heart
Ran to the safety of my comforts
Let go of faith cause doubting is easy
My belief is as good as buried
Though I see no better in future
Please remember my name God
I know I said "God later"
When I choose chasing earthly treasures
Now I bathe in a million dollar
Yet happiness and peace call me a stranger
Yea I'm lost from your presence
Please remember my name God.

Marry me Msichana wa Kariuki

Marry me msichana wa Kariuki
Though I have no riches to shower you
I will give you all that's my heart
I shall write you 1000 poems daily
To tell of the million ways that I love you
We shall laugh at the raindrops painting us
We shall go hungry of food but not love
Marry me msichana wa Kariuki
Say Yes to my empty hands darling
For how can full hands hold you
Each night and feed your unmatched romance
How can full hands warm your skin
What's there to nurture in a full man
Come and let we build a legacy.
Marry me msichana wa Kariuki
God knows the first time I saw you
How I saw infinite reasons to live
Your smile wrote futures in my soul
Though I come in rugged clothes and torn pockets
Dust my heart and see the gold underneath the dirt
Marry me msichana wa Kariuki.

The Dark Queen

Don't be fooled by the nectar in her eyes
Lips so pretty and the sun she shines with that smile
Those curvaceous hives that sweeten each eye
Those that leave tongues dripping with desire
That leave grown caterpillars in yo stomach
And say she's a beauty yes she a beauty
But beautiful ladies don't have brains
She's a different kind of beautiful
Let not the magic she weaves with words
The patterns that draw emotions from your depths
The divine cup she pours on paper
Blind you to her calculated imperfections
Much to your assent she's a goddess
Angels do have scars too
Like the morning bird that mellows your soul
Like the cold breeze of The Mekilingi calms
East comes the breaking sun to the morning cold
Such she paints in those who glimpse her
Such she lights each eye lay on her
But deep inside are demons shouting
And the divine blood is crawling the skin in war
The turmoil is nice to be written in pain
So the dawn breaks in love and life
So her body and words in honey and milk
So her throne is crowned in invisible thorns
So she's beautiful but a dark queen.

Just Yesterday

Just Yesterday
As vivid the memory
We met
In the rivalry of academic pages
In the beautiful pace of West over East
We fought a battle of sorts
You won the battle of the Lord
Rest
Just Yesterday
You went the divine walk
Flew from sand to sand the gospel talk
A man dedicated to the mission of the Lord
Rest
Just Yesterday
Before it was all said and done
Your smile shone out the sun
You were a star of the light
A soldier of Christ
You went to rest in His glory
# RIPMusa, A friend, a classmate

Blame it on God

Tonight I will drink myself to death
These pockets be drained to their wreck
I will squander the fortune that's my sweat
My kids will yet again go hungry to bed
And I will blame it all on God
He is cute though he cheated with my best friend
He calls me a whore,my future he cares not
Too busy for me but I love him the same
Till the thorn pricks his own flower
And I will blame it all on God
I swore to be the best of parents
I'd spare the rod for words soft cotton
No punishment though uncouthness apparent
Till he kills his brother over a piece of mutton
And I will blame it all on God
My mornings are wafted of gossip
I merry at the failure of my enemies
How my friend's success begets envy
My prayers unanswered cause of the toxic
And I will blame it all on God
Everywhere is risky I choose to stay here
Waiting for the golden bell to ring for my dreams
Stuck in this comfort of failure and fears
Till age and time tires of the silenced screams
And I will blame it all on God.

I will marry a nun

I have kissed a thousand frogs
They turned me hot yet cold
- amphibious-
Gave them all that's gold
- moments glorious-
Paid me scars of guiltless remorse
Piled layers of scalds and burns
I will heal by a woman religious.
Look at the charred of trust
Was the castle not built from trash
She sang of the beauty of crenels
She's promise aim be jewels
Instead she fed me unto the air
I landed in arms rich of care
Of the lady who red scapular wears
Too tired of the hate chase
Too tired of an endless run
In arms that taste of chaste
My heart was cloistered by one
Whom the injured find rest
-peace and sacrifice-
-love is but her spice-
I will marry this nun.

You can have her

My strength has been wasted in incessant battles
It's been vested in a war not worth fighting
I'm tangled in a game not worth the candle
Fellow abode of rash testosterone and adrenaline
Should we fight for either of our rib
Maybe one created from a future to be
You can have her all for yourself
I've lost too much of love blood
This drain is more of a leukemic flood
The price for seeking a vision blurred
Throwing towels,I accept to be floored
Though her beauty once drove me mad
My life is not one of shuffling like a card
You can have her all for yourself
You can call me a coward for my surrender
Sorry for the fact that I made it linger
Time shall tell the story of my lost splendour
Of one who slept cause his dreams were bigger
My wilted leaf is for your love to flower
My glory shall fade into rustling whispers
You can have her all for yourself
I pray that you be peacefully wed
I hope she doesn't cry my name one day
Out of the pleasure of the flesh games in bed
Her past steal not your happiness
For an eternity full of wallowing
For your munching and swallowing
You can have her all for yourself

For the best

When Adam felt incomplete,
Though bestowed many a gift
Control of all creation and divine breathe
God sent him to sleep
And from his rib came Eve.
So is we;
When in pursuit of our destiny.
When the animals in the garden won't please
All the healing still we sick
All the blessings still we need
God takes away what is rich
To give us the best indeed

I,Jesus

I am the sheep that rules a jungle
The lions slain me and drank of my blood
They ate of my flesh and belched to celebrate
Little did they know that's how I won them
I ushered them unto salvation
I,Jesus

HBD lil siz

A smile bubbly,a face radiant
May it last the breathe of divined dust
Like the richness of your dreams
Like the ingenuity of your intellect
Your years as the count of everlasting
In peace,in merry,in grace.

Lemme drink of your thirstiest well
Say nothing of dryness but quench
You watched I wilting,you left
Yet my demons will beget ya the best

lying lips

And when she says I love you
I will grab her and smear a kiss
I will taste of the lies in her lips

IF

Fast I come in the pouring
A pouring I held for days
Now, unbearable
What if... If...
If I could climb the air
With my stairs of words
To show you my heart in ashes
Erupted from the volcanic feelings
Would you grant me divine healing
If my sun spoke like your light
Would you radiate with burning bliss
Would you smile with that beauty
That pats your lips with magnificence
To draw a sword on my yearning soul
Would you quench my thirst yet hunger
If I could sing you a celestial melody
Would you be soothed by the lines
To hold me through this turbulent winds
Till my hidden tears are ran dry
Would you peg me with love
Till my bleeding vapours in the unknown
If I could let down
The heavy in my heart
To have the truth fly to your face
Would you say yes my Angel
Would you be mine today and forever
Would you be mine today and forever

WAITHERA WA RUNGUNGU

Dear love with eyes as beautiful as the last star
Dear love with a face glowing like the touch of dawn
Dear the one with a body curled like the evening rainbow
The one who sets suns in my feeble moon
Kairetu ka kigikuyu gatwarithitie ngoro yakwa ugwo
(The lady from Kikuyuland who's driven my heart lost)
Karia nyonanga ngaigwa mathogothanio
(The one I see and feel butterflies)
Ino ni yaku dari Waithera
(This for you darling Waithera)
Since the day I glanced at your beauty
That very day when the trees sung
Their leaves danced of branches with life
They died to light a path to yearning hearts
Yet the one who burns past dark clouds
Clouds as dark as your supple skin
She roared with the rays upon your head
And you asked for my hand
Of help and not the rest
I did well to cultivate
Sweetheart Waithera Wa Rungungu(Waithera of the south)
I will never forget the look in your face
Nature's most glamorous written all over
The taste of your lips in battle
When love was born in a maize plantation
When paradise painted our world
Till the tears of dark cloud roared
And I left you in excruciating pain
And I left the other me in the lonely rain
Mama yakwa,(My honey)
Your skin is like the texture of everything nice
I used to touch it with the fragility of a treasure priceless
Your slim antelope legs made me run out of talk
My heart was stolen by a stare at each of your walk
Yet here you saying we are no more
Muiritu Wa Rungungu (Girl from the south)
Eee Ma Waithera,
Did the distance steal that which dusted time
Did the miles stretch our love through that which sits in your cage
Who's that who etched in with a handful dime
And erased the last of my soul-painted page
Kindu wa niu kai niki nduruna
(My love why don't you see)
Without you my heart is just embers
Can't the reek of the burning desires
Awaken the wendo(love) we used to share
Can't these flood from swollen eyes
Like the pouring from the beautiful Arberdares
Wash that which this other lies
Revive this that accidentally died
My angel Waithera,
I will do what you want me to
Though the only I can cook is hot water
I will prepare Pizza from Ngunjagutu(Ugali from mashed potatoes)
Though I can only roast maize
I will slaughter a bull for you
Though you belong to someone else
The hands that you used to know itch
And your skin begs for warmth
Give me one half of a chance
To draw the calabash full of magic waters
Let me end your thirst for the real you missing.

God got your back

And when you got no one to hold on
None to live for;
Sinking... Sinking...
Sinking... In the deep...
At least you will have your breath
Till you figure it out all
Know that one has your back
GOD.

Psalm 8

Hear my faint cry,dear God
Hear the fading echoes of a frail soul
I'm bequeathed in a mould of sin
The devil's upbeat of my disbelief
My every word is to hurt you
With each move I bury you
Your grace is my drug
How I abuse the costly name of love
Shall perish for embracing blindness
Shall I hunger in the midst of plenty
Will I soak in sobs of waste
As I long for another moment of vain
Won't I cease playing victim
When your mercies stare at me
Oh! Don't give me to my ruins
Don't let me follow my ignorant will
For my ways sweet but lead to destruction
A dark soul longs for your light
Such drunkenness need a honest hand
And you will hold me with Truth
Whom words like the sound of a waterfall
My Lord has spoken of my deliverance
The devil is shattered in shame
Oh! The Lord has bridged the distance
With blood healed of what was lame.

Psalm 7

Masquerade not, again, my shame
For His life,He lay when He came
He took my thorns,how He shelved my blame
So why should I hurt,if he desires my will lame
I'll break myself, too tired of vain fame
Be so low let Him be at the hem
Who else can be best as captain of the game
Yea,I will surrender myself for a new name.

Let the dead bury their own

Let the dead bury their own
See how they do it in drones
She used to be one in my dreams
I drown her love into a teary stream
How could I, that life saved
For a soul that mine waived
I will let the dead bury their own
In drones,with words so lone.

I like you natural

I like your face natural
It's as if you dated the sun
And its light on you it shone
When I eye you I burn
Purified of the chemistry born
I like your lips natural
Dry and cracked;unembellished
Staring with hunger and pregnant nectar
To pollinate 'em with love, I relish
Taste the voice that chords like a guitar
I like them curves natural
You wreck me with fantasies rift
When those mountains you swing
My soul,yet,grew wings
I sent a touch as a gift
I like the twins in your chest natural
I pluck such pillows in ecstasy
The feel of spongy fat not silicon
I'm heavens grant me mercy
As I praise of this moment sooner gone
I like your garden natural
Not detersive; not artificially fertilised
For I come not to prowl your land
But of the packed juices utilised
I come to weather rough rocks to fine sand.

Psalm 6

And I don't have wings to fly to heaven
But my legs are enough to walk me there
I will bend to knees the ground
In words honest and tears of prayer
He shall hear my whispers loud
Its all done,my Lord's spoken.

Waves

If to any,
I be a source of disturbance
I detach,
That's why they call me waves
One made for, from, of waters.

Silent Chaos

Lately
Our love's been a cemetery
Silence has found solace under your tongue
You eye me with those lens of mistrust
With thoughts so voiceless but whispers
Thoughts fuelled by what Mama Atis said
From far off
I can see an armoured warrior
Bullets be words,shields be accusations
Her arsenal - a heresy poisoned heart
Pour on me,pour on innocence
All the acid Mama Atis filled you
Her words
Every then I invite a cute one
My music system screams at the ceilings
I trade atmospheric peace with pleasured moans
Sooner... A smile on a knackered being
She came for war and left with joy
Lies Mama Atis feed you.

Let Her

Just a moment for her
Just some space for more tears
Let her break in a manner she loves
Oh! Give her peace on your shoulder

NONE,LONE

They said birds of the same feathers
Who shall therefore
Flock with a winged man
None but him alone
None to share his flight lone.

BE GOD

Dear work of my hands
The one I so treasured in my image
I've come to meet you at your discontent
Open your ears and let's engage
Shout your pain past walls of Amistad
Talk to me of your lament
Each morning I set a light over your head
And your lungs are full of my breathe
I am the song of the early bird
I am the beat at your heart
Can't you feel me?
The blood surging through your veins
And you say you search me in vain
Was that not you
I formed your soul before you came here
And placed you in the love of her womb
While they many shed tears
Your parents of joy,some of miscarriages
While each night you were in peace
Some saw slaughter and blood in their lives
While you struggled through school
Some wasted away in truancy
While your stomach collapsed in full
Some danced flames of hunger
While I listen to your many prayers
Shall you blaspheme me for your ungratefulness
Hey flesh of dust
Were you not the one that I heard about
When Akinyi sobbed from a broken heart
When Waithera called for her competition defeat
When I came down to take stock
And for those who invest more add more
I saw you clinging on misery
I saw a man cringing at lessons
They skived the class to take real tests
I saw you seek me in the wrong place
Though I set you apart as a chosen one
Though each day I bear your impatience
Though I ignore the accuser of your valid sins
Though I bled my Son on the cross
To set away the true wages of your misgivings
You've took my mercy for granted
And emptied it with nonsense so gross
You've shuttered your heart with blindness
And filled my temple with sacrilege
Where do you want to me live?
The spirit of truth you've refused to believe
What's left for me to forgive?
Now that you're full self-righteous
Raise those hopes of whom are wilting
Teach a newborn the language to the breast
Tell the sun to rise and rain to cease
Breath life to a mountain of fire
Answer both the prayer of
A coffin maker and that of a doctor
A gambler and betting company
A teen having premarital sex asking for protection from pregnancy
Hey dear one,
There you go,be God.

DEAR KARUGURU

Dear Karuguru,
The only one my eyes can see
One who takes my heart south
You whose lips like broken cactuses
They shine red,mirages of hunger
Your face is a map of wrinkles
I will count them with every kiss
Your rickety legs are two flag posts
Begging for my hands to anchor them
Your behind is like two mangoes
Ripe for sitting not flaunting
Your thighs are neither fats nor muscle
Can those bones hold my weight
Your chest is flatter than mine
Don't say I stare too much on those grapes
Your crocodile skin stretches with sorrow
Of the dust and burns from your farmwork
Your hands look like merged scales
Your hair like a wizard's steelwool
But your brains oh darling
Your brains...
Are worth a picture
(1,000 words)
Lady of my dreams
To which plantation shall I say
" Come meet me my sweetheart
I will give you this words of love"
Where shall I ask you
To be mine forever.

Psalm 5

In anguish pour my heart
In genuine wailing seek Him out
Hasn't He that you yearn for
Said of you, and in His faithfulness
"In those days shall they call on me
I will listen and answer their cry"

Friday, June 15, 2018

Rest well

Rest well with emotionless face
Like a stone cold to my tears
Shut your eyes to my pain
Did not Hades expose the forever lies
But little care to leave a bleeding space
She,devil,my weak heart sears
Embers scatter of a bond slain
May an angel of comfort from your dust rise
To quell thirsty flames of which I turmoil
So,enjoy your gift of limitless sleep
Crawl your lovely soul past the soil
Smear each particle a shiny,lively lip
As you dance to the way of light
And pluck the fruits of a relentless fight
Peace, though union awaits,be with you
I shall be content with memories of two.

LOVE LETTER 1

Dear love,
This miles spread my need to taste your charm with starving eyes.Yet my heart says you are here next to me.
It's been long too long since we last felt of the magic of each others skin,the magic of our twin heartbeats.
I miss everything about you.That face that taught the sun how to shine,and that smile that the rainbow borrowed of its beauty.That sweet personality you stole from angels. At least, your divine beauty makes you more than one.
I'm so drunk in your love. See how unsteady is my soul.
It staggers in search of your balance.
Now that the subtleties and the frivolities of this cunning life impede the bond to be, know that you are the only song I ever hear. You are the reason that makes life worth it. You are the reason why another cannot turn off the substance that's our love. You are the only one that makes this miles a heartbeat away. The only, I love.
Yours
Sank in love.

LOVE LETTER 2

Honeypie,
Once again I can't dry my ink in peace. Neither with emptiness.
Rather, I leak feelings beyond emotions. My heart pours a thousand definitions of love.
You know, I thought I wouldn't write to you this early(hours after my first letter,barely hours after your reply) but the adrenaline rush of the muse escaped the cage. My eyes hunger for your voluptuous body more than these ears thirst of your voice. Numb are these fingers as they esteem to massage your tender skin and run touches in your silky smooth hair. My soul feels like running out of space to remand your fervent love.
I want you all for myself. I am not ready to share you with anyone, not the air you breathe not the light in your eye lens. I'm jealous of the blood that flows through your heart daily,does my love do so? I'm jealous of all the eyes that see your divine beauty, though random and uninterested. I'm jealous of every compliment you receive for how your beauty makes all that you clad classy. But I can do nothing about it. (And that makes me more jealous).Yet,you will be amazed on how our love paints trust over my jealousy, leaving me laughing at my stupid prejudices.
The last time I wrote you,my intellect was floored by your romantic juices that my grammar went packing. You may have never noticed my use of "This" instead of "These"(at least you never mentioned it in the reply) and if you did,how love restrained the grammarly in you. Don't even contest it,love is the concrete substance of our existence. Did you not sink it in my head with your zealous reply. Talking of replies,I long for one to this - like the dusk longs for dawn. The last one almost penned my life to heaven as every word made my heart skip.
Love,allow me to pause this reality for the sake of a perishable called time. Miles away,know that there's one who prays that God keeps you safe. Heart you.

NOT YOURS ANYMORE

Knock till your knuckles hurt
Hurt till your veins bleed
Bleed as you seek that which isn't
Bleed as you beg for what you abhorred
Beg for the garbage that turned gold
My glitter has your eyes unclogged
Shout at the top of your desperate voice
Ask for a drop of mercy,a droplet love
Carry a soul wore on shoulders once pride
Stalk layers of remorse on your breaking heart
Hold on hope that the pain shall soon wilt
It has grown like winged whispers
It has flooded regrets on your sundry brains
You,who thought, you'd bury the sun in torrential rain
You left me torn in a sad spectrum
You ditched my heart a pieces of tears
But I, danced at the sound of a broken drum
With knees sunk in a swamp from pouring eyes
With a will crushed but tired of petty lies
I sold my love to One who gave it freely.
#200

NEVER MEET

Somewhere along the bitterness
Some place such named silence
One stuck in doubt another in fear
One in naivety another in maturity
One be wounded another jinxed
Never the twain shall meet.

What's Left of You

What's left of you
A miracle - you lively in a vacuum
Though you lost a heart in the way
Though it milked thy strength dry
Though it fed you to all that's doom
Fought
Fight
You stand in legs harboured
You pin hurt in a wall,full of hope
Wall,full of dreams written by faith
You never worn out patience
A small victory battle to battle
Shall not fade neither bow
The war is already won.

defeated

- broken
By those lies in your promises
If the promises themselves
I never know, were lies
Your words as sweet confectionery
"Honey,to death with love
To eternity with bound hearts"
As conniving, as convincing too
Floored all naive parts
They fell and fell for you
Now,
That,
The king's been dethroned
A commoner rules romancia
Angels smile darkness wounded
Bleed me of all lovely
Bleed me the control and power
- defeat.

Ain't Worth my love

You cannot have her and have me
At least you can have one of us at a time
But I won't play second fiddle
Ain't the one who stays to solve the riddle
Don't you know the desire of your heart
Ain't you sure of what you want
Child
Like the day you said "love you"
To her with copy and paste to me
Took her on a date cheap of wild chips
In the same shanty we graced too
Hey! cheap ass
Is it a fresh lake full of sewer
Is it a play field of despair games
Yo heart
Ain't worth my love.

Torn

Build your walls high in promise
For sand and flesh is for termites
Your dark soul in turmoil
A mouth curls escape smiles
Each word a hollow cry
Each cry a fragile lie
Longing for the end to feel the light
Longing for the set to rest tired eyes
Who shall hear,shall hide you?
You forsaken your holiest caves
May heavens taste of your plight
Whispers torn to the divine.

I will wait for you (Ballad to one so much loved)

Miles is such a short word
But not for souls in love
Will these four years ever trickle
To bind again part worlds
Though I feel empty,won't fickle
I will wait to, loneliness shove
The cold may freeze me into temptation
To touch beneath another's dress
To kiss them with the magical words
But give in, I won't
I have built you in my heart
Your memories shall be my warmth

A rose,
I won't blossom in none morning
Not at the touch of dew nor dawn
Not at cool of mist nor light
Lest light and mist rainbow you
I will wait for you
They say our love is one to perish
They say we live in elusive euphoria
But what is talk to our bond
I have you written in my soul
What is empty tongues to valid whispers
You're the spoken dream girl of my life
Though I sink in lone depths
Like the dusk dances to starry nights
I will wait for our time
Though of others glories I envy
Like Z does in the alphabet
I will wait for our turn
Though my demons be burnt by
A fire lit by despair and tire
I will wait for you my love.

There's a woman who sits by my heart

There's a woman who sits by my heart
Stamping it of fragile bonds
Her body talks of a million suns
She glitters hot and all sexy
She sinks me in strange feelings
I'm lost in her melodious curves
There's a woman who crawls 'neath my skin
See the nectar in her eyes
Tempts you call her a flower
Lo! Hers beauty wilts not
See how her smile torns me
The snowy flakes in her mouth
God must be behind such perfection
I bleed, my want, to its last drop
There's a woman that feeds my thoughts
I long to tread fingers upon silk
Eager to travel her luxuriant hair
The beauty of her skin like
A sky so painted with starry night
Whenever I hear her sexy voice
A golden mist crawls my throat
Everytime she calls my name
Me na go gaga!me na dance crazy
This woman in my dreams
Lay these words to her ears
Paint her attention with my starved truths
Tell her she's nothing but beautiful
Tell her,she's perfection clothed in flesh
Tell her she's the rib I ever lost
Tell her I miss her,me long for her
This woman...

RIP ABURA

The sands of time for another
Lost to the inevitable insatiable
The so bellied to swallow all
One at an instance, all eventually

PSALM 4

Break my son,break free from the chains

Shake it off like a dusted sole

Shake it off like you got Jesus

Let go girl,let go of all hurt

Sink it in the promises undone

Sink it in dead memories a past

Let go like you got Jesus

For what mends broken hearts

With but ripped flesh and sprinkled blood

For what heals like lashes and strips

One, burdened, for all to set free.

YOU SAY

You say,
"I've tasted pain,I've tasted love,
Men are dogs,female bitches"
But have you tasted Jesus
You say,
"I drink defeat,beloved by failure
The ladder is for slippery,I always slide"
Yet you've tasted not Jesus
You wail,
"Life's unfair, like the depths of my pocket
I fast in prayer, still broke to go rock it"
Have you laid it on Jesus?
You weep,
"We loved him much,the breathe in our hearts
When agony was his meal,to our pleas He was deaf
Our eyes bled love,still He snatched him above"
Yet in your tears he was the last drop
He was the comfort that saw you move on
He was the rest that swallowed his wallowing hope
You curse,but at least,you lucky to have tasted Jesus.

SHE

She,
Her lips like nectar cause
Once I tasted them I felt butterflies in my stomach
Drained me by her eyes
They flooded with streams of beauty
Her voice vibrates awesome
The melodies of a fallen heart
She
Called me by my name
Held my hand and led me astray
Took my heart captive,lone away
She whispered
Sweet nothings in a cold ear
Nibbled my senses too,in the process
I,taken.

Unto Jesus

Sit not there with your ills
Musing on how else you will heal
Struggling to save your miserable life
Fighting the disguise in pretty lies
There were only three crosses
Don't strive to make them four
Carry yours to the bleeding feet
Those anointed with oil,holed for salvation
Cast your crown beneath these feet
Knock on the door of He who rests
The burdens for the weary are His
Seek He who answers while you are still speaking
Whose name is enough for your innumerable sins
But don't take the great jump
The depths are not worth the lose
Sorrows may last a night but joy is eternal
The bitter cup meant to clean your soul
For a renewed heart, right spirit
The devil,flee not feed
Run to Jesus like the refugee city
His blood will light the darkness
He will pardon your sins for grace;grace for grace
Let Him cast your iniquity for beauty
His stripes were for your wounds
The thorns for your weak flesh
Let it go,let Him know
Welcome Christ to your life today.

Bled on Paper

I bled in paper
And did it inspire?
Did it transform?
Did it breath life?
These,I don't know
I,glad,to have bled.

RIP '16

So bad I will miss you this much...
Like how I drown this
That which came with much promise
And in smell and taste of hope
I kissed it with passion and mirth
I told it my dreams in sacred whispers
What was to a come,mystery
The beauty that ruined
Crown a week,thorns another
But the lessons,ah! the lessons
I will love another with such
So goodbye darling, much go
Good riddance to the sands
The sands that gifted you,me
I'm in love with another...
# RIP2016

PSALM 3

In the dwindling of hope
In the utter despair of this vain life
Whom shall we look to
Whom shall we cry for
Will it be the Face of Truth
Shall we seek the way of Light.

PSALM 2

PSALM 1

FALL FOR YOU

Mediocre god 2

Whom is he that you call
In your loud voices at public places
Whom is that you cry for
In foreign tongues to scare us
Whom is he that you praise
Asking them to give your deserved blessings
Whom is he?

Does he laugh when he sees you
Walk past a beggar with your pride
Soliloquising; "These are the thieves who
Are you used to milk us dry with their laziness"
Is he glorified in your haughty joy
When your neighbours child is made heavy
And gets the drop out of school
Does he take the credit for your answered prayer
"May my enemies, people I envy,be defeated"
Or is he not perturbed
When you blame everyone for your shit
Does it not concern him a holy
That he thrives on those after a piece of their own mind

Oh what a funny god, you worship
Fervently, in fast and grins in your face
In tears of songs, In clapping and shaking and drama
In miracles of spouses,riches and empty promises
This god you pray for what he gives
One not to seek for who he is
One that enjoys theatrics and gymnastics
What a funny god you serve

Last night we met in the kisses
And you said "I cannot bear the heat of this moment"
Sheets suffered our wrestling and I heard
You called him in ecstasy, in infinite orgasms
You called on your god.