A BROKEN MAN

Running out of words
Like no bullets,an empty gun
Standing tall on my knees
Seeking help for my needs
My fears are typed in tears
My strength fades into silent prayers
Who's the cure for the dumb
Where's the lamb of the damned
The blood to clean dirty hands
The one to make new this broken man

FROM THE DIARY OF THE FOUND SHEEP #2

FAILURE!AGAIN!

Another one clinging on a broken branch

A lost soul sinking in the deep

Crocodiles are celebrating their meal

Foes are reaping their evil deeds

Bees are out of nectar

Broken promises are my new shelter

Sank in regret of another failure

My rock is weathered to sand

Where's the foundation of diamond

For i have been swept away by sin

Again;betrayed the blood of the Son

God here I am,done

Worn of the emptiness of this man

I don't know what to ask

May your will be done.

IN LOVE WITH A PROSTITUTE

I'm in love with a prostitute
The pot that feeds many
The young and the old
The starving and the glutton
A well that quenches all
I'm in love with this harlot

I'm in love with a lost soul
The lady that failed her papers
And society termed her trash
A dunderhead wasting its resources
Now she's giving back
She's donating her nectar
For only a small fee

I'm in love with someone's daughter
Wonder how it feels to be her father
How the dreams when she a kid
Fragment into tears in his heart
But I will calm him with dowry
Hope it mends those broken parts
'Cause I'm in love with his leaking calabash

I'm in love with this prostitute
That night she fed me charms
The sweetness of her divine body
'Tween the sheets my heart was stolen
By her amorous whispers and twerks
I swear!!I will make her my own
Surely!I will marry this prostitute.

LETTING GO

With no tail to hide between my legs
My disgrace lives under the sand
The scattered rocks of sadness
My shame is more of a night
This life devoid of light
Lost is knocking aloud
The sun is fading fast
Shadows bury in darkness
My breathe all but gone
These tears my appetite
My strength grown petite
Am letting go, Am quitting now
Am letting go, Am letting God

THAT NIGHT 3

like an arrow piercing a broken
heart
bleeding residual pain
a cloud of guilt engulfed of
darkness
and poured on her face
that night
she felt like Facebook cause
only walls knew her tension
strange noises got her attention
tears spoke beyond emotions
that night
as crime nibbled her soul
i stared with bloodshot eyes
of wonder, of such madness
of what her heart fed
half-smile, half-devil
dense of the mess
her broken humanity
untold pain, she cried
i had to do it
i had to let him go
i ended the pregnancy

MEDIOCRE god

Whats that god you serve
You
Who trend hashtags about rogue pastors
But silent on the plight of 'street' kids
Distant walks to avoid their stinky souls
Aha!you!
Whats that you serve

Who's that busy writing your name
In his book of lived
You,
Instead of,in pertinent knees sink
Are busy praying for a caring hubby
After last night in sheets with baba stacy
Don't you see its all vanity

Oh!
Who's that you pray to
You!
At the speed of light stones pelt
With hands ready to undress
Her mini;
Envious of a friend's merit
Dodging his faults behind his back

You,grumpy woman
Fighting everyone at work
To quench your demons,your wiles
You,perfect man
With the magic to see another's speck
Right past your ocludded retina

Hey yo!
Whats that you worship
That ain't bothered with some sins
But enjoys to incinerate his creation
Who's that you revere
Comfortable with burst condoms
But bewitched by "illegal" abortions
Who's content with a day of glorification
Or is it listening to your whining
Who is this bogus diety
Where's your mediocre god?

THE UNIQUENESS OF TRUE LOVE

What else can melt the heart
If its not true love
Other loves flow through it
And are pumped around the body

Some love go to the head
Building castles of infatuation
Romancing the fake fantasies
Wrecking peace,joy of the tenant

Some fill the mouth
The sweet whispers of eros
Sooner swept by the wind
Its love on the air
Strong when we together
Dead,when distance puts us asunder

Other to the limbs flows
Creating bad blood after the blows
Once best friends,now worst foes
Calling for sacrifice for your boo
Like spending on her,sleeping without food
Ask my shoe,ask my shoe...

Some goes to the Ps and Vs
Sparking a sexual bonfire
Orgasms,new paradise,take you higher
Every Sunrise,erections are your directions
Those one night stands,you call that affection?

But the magic of true love
Bonds hearts and dreams
None matters,but the one belief
That time,and rough hills
Life and beyond it
Together we will swing
And fly past eternity
We,angels with crystal wings
For there's none immortal
Than two souls;in true love

THE BLOOD OF JESUS

Why would sin swim
If drowning breathes more life
What need would guilt float
If immersed in the blood of Jesus

WHEN A MAN LOVES A WOMAN

When a man loves a woman
He rather anguish in hunger
With thoughts of her, than treasures
In a palace of but her memories
For love is as strong as death
Dearer than diamond dreams

When a man loves a woman
Moons may collide to ashes
The beauty of twined souls
Than be an amazing eclipse
Stolen breathes are boring
Losing sane is the new fun

When a man loves a woman
Everything revolves around her
Like planets,like a million galaxies
The world becomes a star
Each creature craving for light
A gravity to worship,for life

When a man loves a woman
There's none more comforting
Than to walk on flaming coals
Shirtless in a rainy snow
Sole-less shoes,taking lashes
All for her,his love for her

When a man loves a woman
Butterflies will float higher
From the stomach to the heart
Colorful petals grow bigger
A rainbow of flurry demons
Two ghosts meant for each other

When a man loves a woman
I know of one
Who gave his kidney to save
She died anyway
Like sweating suns in a desert
Drilling boreholes in the ocean
It felt
But his smile,his joy
Love ain't 'bout gaining
Just doing right even if
It hurts still okay
'Cause when a man loves
There's none better than his heart's soap

INHUMANE

Why would a brother
Lust for his brother's wife
Why would a friend
Once ready to take bullets
For you,now stabbing your back
Someone help me understand
Why?

How can a sister fight a sister
For a dark tall handsome
A man devoid of principles
What peace is found in the wind
What longevity in a pouring cloud
What true based on looks
Don't hyenas conflict for carcass

What worth is it
For a mum to kill her own
Unborn;stumped fate,stolen future
Are such people humans
Or bloodthirst skeletons
Take my peace away
Make me think like 'em.

FROM A FOETUS TO ITS MUM

Why me!Why me!

I saw you drunk of regret

The sweetness of the fruit

Between your thighs has become

The bitterness of your bulging stomach

Thoughts you never harbored

When you were on the receiving end

How dramatic!!?

Moans of pleasure have evolved

Into sobs of resentment

Faced by the pressure

Of terminating this pregnancy

Why me?Why me?

I do share in your tears mommy

Knowing I'll never share the joy

Of tangling my little hands to yours

I won't play with toys

A stolen treasure for sure

I won't chuckle, Ta! Ta! Ta!

Hoping my words you understand,mum

Do I have to miss the warmth

And security of your cuddles?

I...I,can't believe...I fail to believe that

You won't delight at the beauty

Of my smile as I wipe dry

Those congratulatory tears,

When I'm honoured with the Masters Degree

Your snaps I won't hear,

At the sound of my poetry...

Why me?Why......

I know that I is a mistake

But two wrongs don't make it right

Look at the end of the tunnel

Open your heart to the light

Beyond this darkness

Make my future bright

Please mommy...Pleaseee..don't give me to Hades

But,

If you must kill me

Better use my former support

To make it a suicide

Lemme breath my first

And strangle me with the umbilical cord

All in all,

In the words of Ellis Paul

"Freedom can numb you

When there's no place to run to"

Because I 'll always haunt you

In your sleep each night

And daddy too

In every boner,orgasm and condom burst

For I am the child

That he never had

I am the kid

Who your guilt will feed

The one,who never rested in peace.

TO MY DEADBEAT DAD

What changed?
That which was once unworthy
Is of life price to you
Oh! deadbeat dad
What changed?
I,
The mistake of your burst condom
I,
The trap that mum used
To get you marry her
But failed,Dad!
Didn't those words ooze your mouth
Did they?
That day
How I wish I could forget
That day
In the chilly winds with fingers
Little,wiped mommy's face
That wetness;that pool of innocence
That ocean,of regrets and broken love
You tell me
How do I forget that?
Those jabs on her mellow face
Those insults like fatal bullets
Missiles that blew her heart
Off love shut amorous doors
All that!in one day?
I remember none?
In one day,you did all that?
How brave was of you

Daddy!
Did the beauty of the moon
Ignite your despise for the sun
Did the magnificence of the flame
Steal your reverence for the fuel
Did your appetite for promiscuity
Eat your love for your precious daughter
Did it?
Here you are
With tears made of silver
Weeping for a heart of gold
So you think your arrow words
Can pierce this heart of rock
Like seriously
Dry your cheeks and get your demons
Dark angels too to calm the regrets
For I no longer know you
Am not your daughter anymore.

MOVE ON ‪#‎spokenword‬

Inaumiza,kuskia eti uliamua kuhang on
Kwani umekua nguo;
No wonder anakubadilisha na mwingine daily
Amekufanya his Sunday best,his sexual well
Kukunywa ile tym ako dry spell
Na,unadai huezi mwacha
Juu ako dark,tall and handsome
Pia ana character,anashika rada
Coz alikufunza sweety si tamu ukila na karatasi
Akihema juu yako kama Mollis,ka boli,akikupepeta
Anaplay feelings zako as if ur heart's plastic
Hajali mimba,kukuambukiza,uwe another statistic
Na unaendelea kuhold on,huezi move on?
Mbona,mbona,mbona
Za mwizi zikifika arubaini
Umbembeleze na mapenzi ya dhati
Huyo mwanaume ametupa mbao
Mpaka anadoz na wale mathe wa kumikumi
Mbona
Mtu hata haezi kununulia lollipop ya tano
Hana fikra za future asave hata one bob
Is it worth it,your heart,less than 50 cents
Are you that cheap?jiulize
Unajiconvince ati atachange,Jamaa anafuata hata change
Ya fifty,Use your common sense
Mrembo,unatumiwa tu,Ukiisha kua fiti
Mwanaume atakujump,akuache kwa fence,umehang on
A move on,ama a move in,na mwingine
So,let go and let God
Let go and let God
Better yet,unaeza endelea kulive in facts fake
In fantasies your relationship ukibase,Ukidai ni love real
Ukisahau mapenzi ya Yesu ndo ilikam kwanza
By Ye strips alikuheal,Time alisulubishwa kwa msalaba
Ni ukweli nakushow so usihate
This is only advice nakupee
Decision we ndo utamake
Kuchoose the truth or the rest
The ball is in your court
The ball's in your caught

BURNING INSPIRATION

I feel like stealing all paper in the world
I feel like writing my whole life down
I am socked in ink
I am an author burning inspiration.

BEAUTY HURTS

In his arms you cuddle
Pain moistens his hollow eyes
Behind the frail smile
An anguish so heavy
Wounds from stabs of insecurity
Your beauty hurts

When hardwork conceives promotion
The air's polluted,your name
Like the stench from "bama"
Gossips of sexually transmitted appraisal
Rule their guilt masquerading minds
As they gag the prideful mouth
Your beauty hurts
With each swing of your curves
Men stick their tongues out
Salivating upon their lustful fantansies
Howling erotic whistles "ksksksks,madam"
(no wonder them called dogs)
Thirsty eyes are quenched
Your figure recedes,necks break
So do a relationship after a bitchslap.
Surely,your beauty hurts

THAT NIGHT 1‬

That night
Not the same voice
That once pounced my ears
Full of romantic nectar
Escaped her mouth
That night
Her voice was feeble
Lips dry and shaking
Drier than the dust in Kwa vonza
Not shimmerring and succulent
Like they did last week
From the magic of our kisses

That night
She struggled to speak
Tears flooding her swollen eyes
Not a pleasurable pool
Like the waterfall last week
These ones full of desperation
An ocean of anxiety and confusion
Finally she mumbled
Words that got my heart wild
Torn apart by reality of her tone
"I Missed my ."

THAT NIGHT 2‬

With eyes flooding than Budalangi
Chest wetter than her pants in
The fateful night,panting
Sobs of questions without marks
Answers she knew but still asked
"What we gonna do about it"
Like the being in her's a thing.
That night
I lost the audacity of words
Intepridness knew not my world
I stared at her with eyes,cold
Like a geek in a drinking party
Like a city boy lost upcountry
The sight of the lady heavy
Wasn't a glittering beauty
Which I once pampered honey
Just one shot before we marry
Promise I will let you meet my mummy
That night
She only had a magic
Of a stomach sooner bulging
And me,
Stood shorter than a Lilliputian
With the spirit of a villian
Numbed my hearty pain
Drank of ruthless wine
Poured out the words plain
THE KID IS NOT MINE.

SAUDADE‬

This place
Angels weep of broken wings
Righteous deeds demons worship
Each breath a concoction
Of dried pain,pulverized affection
With each gush of wind
Lost kisses the air stink
And the moonlight's nothing
But bitter memories of feign love
The warmth of his deceptive arms
This place
Where X answers the Ys
Of your waaaiii!!iiiii!!
From your flooding crimson eyes
Saudade

‎TRUE FRIEND‬

When all seems but lost
Hurt feasting your weary soul
Cracks leak of bitterness
Eyes rain broken promises
Wounds bleed residual love
My arms warmth will clot
A forehead kiss to bandage
My mouth behind you rally
Despite your guilt tickling my concious
I will sing along sombre ballads
Lullabies too to comfort
I will whisper sweet nothings
To rebind smashed pieces
Your broken heart mend
I will be your true friend

TIGHT LOVE

I will hold her tight
until the grass grows around us
until a thousand moons kiss us
until the world knows she the
language of me heart
until eternity is extinguished by our love

SPOKEN WORD:TAKE HEART

Life ni shot,no wonder at times utakua wounded
U wil be short,tuexplain it with any word and
Mind itakua blank,juu shida zmekuacha hoi
Tears ngumu kuhold back,zako ni wooi!
Ndo times utafeel in a river,imejaa mamba
Thoughts ztarule kichwa,za kukata kamba
Baraka zmekujificha,no matter how umejikaza
It neva rains bt pours

Mabeshte mob watahepa
Wapenzi watakuhama
The real ones watakwama
Hope's ur only armour
Kuamini usiache,don't quit
Persevere yote,as u mek ends meet
Hata ka uko unlucky,ya mwenzio usitamani
Kumbuka zile maua ugly,huattract most beatiful butterfly
It neva rains bt pours

Life ikikusinya ka pimple
Stress ikikuturn chizi
Just keep it simple
Take it easy
Tell ur heart poa
Cz u expect more
It neva rains bt pours

One day kutakucha,baraka Mola atashusha
Kwako watamuja,wale waliokushusha
Milango hapan funga,wajionee watajuta
Wakilia dry 'em tears
Forgive,seek not vegeance
Wacha iwe lesson
We ain't defined by a season
Let smiles rain,and happiness reign
Cz blessings wont rain bt pour.

IN LOVE

In your arms full of magic
Hold my lonely heart
With your sexy eyes
Trap my restless thoughts
On your luscious curves
Feed my wanting desires
Those lips nectared with love
Kiss me beyond the stars.

TO MY MUM

Was it in the shrills of the cold night
That her arms fed love in me
Felt secure as my first I breathe
Life begotten,a journey to tread

The sleepless nights of my wails
From the pain of my ail
She prayed till dawn
Until salty tears aced her cheeks
Until her throat ran dry and hoarse

Should I talk of the whips
That my crooked ways straightened
Or the gentle lullabies to dreamland
But in morn blankets pulled off
Early rise to school
I would click and hate
Her light laughter watered
My dream as a nation builder

If words were used
Her wisdom to paint
Libraries would be overwhelmed
Ink imported from space
A lifetime would be spent
To document her selfless love

Many a memory now I'm grown
But I know for me she still prays
No matter how imma be lost
Never doubt,never quit,no love lost love
For his precious son
I LOVE YOU MUM.

TO THE BROKEN HEARTED

I know
That respledent face wearing a smile
Is a facade of corrusive tears
Awashing a torn heart
A heart spitting broken promises
An unreciprocated love

I can see
Beyond your kindness dear
Lies a lamenting soul
Full of 'Why me?'s
Strangled by pain of denial
Dad didn't accept his kid.

Its so evident
Inside that cheerful spirit
Hopelessness is annihilating you
Fruitless miles of job hunting
Body demaciated,weared shoe soles
Friends left you in the lurch

Ain't it true?
Behind the prideful you
Is a being dying of anguish
Of Thank you's,sorry's never voiced
Trapped by need to exalt self
A pitfall for boastful hearts

Veracity has it
We all hide under masks
Deep down tears,screaming in vain
Feasted by fears,scars of pain
But I know One who heals
Your case you can plead
The lowly He lifts
His love never cease
Yes!I know God.

MISSING YOU

I stare upon the moonless sky
A sparkle of desperation
Teary eyes greet the dusk
These miles overwhelm me
Lonely thoughts rule a restless heart
Proof is in the way it hurts

These calls and texts ain't enough
Can they replace the sound
Of your heartbeat,warmth breathe?
How I miss the tickling you'd laugh
Our arms our blanket remember?
Memories crush me baby
I'm on my last legs
My mind dine your photos
Fifty ways to say I miss you
Listen to the whispers darling
Of a soul yearning for you
Of eyes hungry for your sight
Ears longing to your soothing voice
And steal me a glance
Of your bewitching curves
To get me off the doldrums

STRESS OUT

Whats a world without tears
Don't they wash away sorrow
A waterfall of broken promises
Reminding us of sweet memories
Of dead dreams and happiness bereft
They do clean eyes too

Whats a life without stress
Dont it steal our comfort zone
Criminalize inner calm,a rumbling wind
Sweeping our strength into a distant planet
Leaving a heart empty but faith
But life must go on
So stand tall this weary times
Head high though zero dimes
Here's my shoulder lean on
Drain the tears,rainbow with a smile
Laugh out the stress,intake peace
Rise again,rise above this

BELIEVE ME

Believe me pretty lady
A day will come
These tears you shed
After a night of 'love-making'
In thin air he vaporized
Will be a solvent of happiness
Memories of a million frog kisses
As you utter "I do"
To the man of your dreams

Believe me young man
That moment will come
The stench of ditches you clean
The scorching afternoon sun
The treking to,fro offices
With sole-less shoes in search
For a job,you will miss.

Believe me intellect
You who fees a struggle
Studying on an empty stomach
To enlighten a malnourished brain
You who ain't pursuing your passion
Forced to study that course
It pays well,they say
Freedom is calling out
Liberation hungers your embrace

Believe me champ
The hours spent at the gym
Fitness for the game
A body they can kill for
When the day comes
Will translate into medals
Winks!Awws!necks breaking
More important will grow
An invicible self confidence

Believe you me
Whose poems never read
Whose stories never published
Songs never been played
Thoughts only known by walls
Been your sole audience for ages
Your shot will come
Bewitch the world with tunes
With poetic magic inspire

 Believe me dear
That day a'int far
Though it may take years
Dreams never grow old
Held fast,they vanish not
For darker nights;brighter stars
Ugly flowers;sweetest nectar
Never quit on those visions
Carry on.

HOW TO FIX A BROKEN HEART

How do you fix a broken heart
Is it by crying a bucketful tears
Washing your face in sorrow
Burying yourself five feet under
A lockdown of a million regrets

How do you fix a broken heart
Is it by hearing a multitude of advice
Or humming to the heartbreak songs
To contain the inner demons
To contain a screaming soul
To enliven a shrinked aorta

How do you fix a broken heart
Is it by taking vegeance
Like sleep with her best friend
Or smash his posh Lamborghini
Maybe pretend all is well
Pretend you dont know about his sidechick
Corrupt him with mad love
And break his heart when he really needs you

How do you fix a broken heart?
Is it by praying loudly,or calmly
Call heavens for a healing miracle
Or meditate for an inner peace
Maybe fall in love with a choir member
Or take a liittle walk in the park

Don't wanna lose sleep again
Rusting in my dim world
Drowned in an ocean of cardiac wounds
Please free me this pain
Fix these broken veins
Tutor me on fiixing my torn heart.

SONG OF A FOETUS

When that day comes
When I'm aged,feeble and ready
Ready to kiss the earth bye
I'll look at the setting sun
Nostalgic of gone smiles

When that moment comes
With a happily married spouse,
Kids to love unconditionally
I'll persevere this stressful life
A life of punctured,conquered dreams

When the parties go down
Holding a pot of "Shisha"
And a bottle of tequila
Maybe braving the chilly night
Drinking from the Holy Ghost
Praises from deep my soul
I'll surely enjoy my youth.

When merry days come
Moulding clay,"gari za waya"
A freaky show,Bantu game
Kalongolongo,Cha mama na baba
I 'll free the inner me
To relish the joy of childhood

When my wails rule this space
As my first I breathe
Someone's delight will be vivified
My heart shall dance
To the tunes of this wishes
The song of I, foetus.

BROKEN AND GONE

Won't you dry those crocodile tears
A bucketful of them won't get me back
Please stop your eyes raining lies
Don't let your heart throb out
I'm broken and gone

When our fingers interlocked
Your fears and tears were mine
The hisses and kisses we shared
Was it all real?
Ah!ah!don't open your mouth
And stink me with your half-truths
I'm done and gone

Our love I treasured
My all you were entrusted
Was his looks more sexy?
Or it was his expensive gifts?
Taste the road with your soles
I don't wanna see your face again
You a'int worth my "cheap" soul

Got to thank you darling
For making my eyes swell
For fucking my best friend
For this heart you've bleed
One tattered with clotted blood
One broken and gone.

HOE

They called her a hoe
Her sexy thighs gleaming
Took less than a minute
To undress her mini
I thought her dress was her choice

They called her a hoe
Spotted with a different guy today
Laughing,hugging,partying
Must be an experienced golddigger

Her dress might had been indescent
Or them lustfully starved
Can't one enjoy friendship
And dance the songs of this short life
Guess he was right
Who said "they hate us coz they a'int us"
But of the blind naive society
She will always be their hoe.

A LETTER TO FARDHOSA

My Fardhosa dearest
Need I greet you?
A beauty beyond fine,
My eyes have tire
Of emptying corrosive tears
Where did our rocket love go?
The sky never was a limit

My lollipop,my 'ngujagutu'
(yes!You were that sweet)
Why did you price tag
Our invaluable love?
Made me run to that sweet heart
Whose love melted after a few kisses

Remember when you mumbled
"Let go of heavy stuff
If your's aim to fly"
Me let go of our love
To light your blurry soul
All i ever wished,your smile
For your happiness,I'd die

The only tune in my cardiac playlist
Give us what we truly desire
A reunion of lone hearts
Libraries of romantic memories
A second chance,my love

WORD OF HOPE

If tears race your cheeks

A sorrow laden path to trace
Terrors of death assail your spirit
Words turn to sharp arrows
True friends,an 'evergreen Kalahari'
Your soul's pulverised

When loneliness flap hopeless wings
A cloud of darkness engulfs you
Echos of restless thoughts
Flood your stress-laden brain
Your heart,tempest and storm

Chant a prayer and trust
He who saw it all
He who understands it better
Who was,is and will be
The almighty,forever faithful one

DEAR CRUSH

Dear crush,

Of eyes that sparkle beyond a million
stars
Of curves that stiff my neck
Of the choking secret truths
Of the pain from voiceless thoughts
Of you,I write.

Your beauty,
A spark immersed in gasoline
A bonfire in the darkest alley
A ray of light amidst a storm
The catalyst of our chemistry.

My rainbow of romantic hope
The seventh chromo of the torn me
Trap me into your volcanic heart
Melt my frozen dreams
Build me a lane of infatuation
Drown me,in the ocean of your myriad suitors.